Note: this one is an impromptu vent-job; it was written to get things off my chest. It is not to be taken too seriously, as it is influenced by a general lack of sleep and a failure to get a ‘saving throw’ against a flock of stirges. Spo
It’s been ages since I posted or at least it feels like it. I’ve lost a sense of time this week. This is partially due to the Memorial Day weekend making the work-week start on a Tuesday but it is mostly from fatigue. It’s been one of those weeks. When they occur I only do the necessary matters and the rest of the time I am in bed and sometimes quite early. This week I’ve forgone things I like doing or ‘ought’ to do; as my brain says just go to work and do the job and the rest of the time, sleep. I am heeding it. In some ways I have no choice.
It isn’t work itself that has tired me out but life in general. Sometimes I find the bad actions and stupid beliefs of my fellow man just too much and in response I crawl in a hole to avoid the toxicity. It is tiresome seeing people again and again saying and doing awful things and getting their way for it. They always seem to win; there is no so-called karma to slap them silly. It upsets my inner child who wants good behavior rewarded and bad behavior (and people) punished. I shouldn’t be shocked by this but once in awhile I feel hope this time it will be different and it isn’t.
Another element of my doldrum moods is the self-inflicted decision to go for the ‘trophy’ in language lessons. To win I have to stay in the top ten by Sunday night. This has required doing lessons whenever there’s a free moment – not so much to learn a language but to keep in the top tier. It is rawther exhausting. At least this ends on Sunday night. The general nastiness of my fellow man: that continues.
Last night we went to see a play in which the main character was a bully, pushing and threatening until he got his way. I walked out at intermission as it was too much like life. It is one thing to put up with this in life but sitting watching such as entertainment makes no sense.
There is the usual humdrum but necessary weekend endeavors. Sometimes I enjoy them but this weekend not so. It’s about 9PM and I am going to bed. I don’t sleep well these days as my sleep is full of bad dreams but it beats staying up. I am too tired to do so anyway.
Rant over; thank you for reading.
43 comments
May 31, 2024 at 9:19 PM
Parnassus
I agree with you about leaving the play that was too much like the unpleasant aspects of real life. In the same vein, there are so many books about dysfunctional families and societies. It would seem that people would stay away from these books in droves. I certainly try to keep my own distance from them.
–Jim
June 1, 2024 at 12:01 PM
Urspo
Watching people be beastly to each other… I get that enough in real life.
May 31, 2024 at 10:07 PM
Anonymous
Life is heavy enough sometimes , I donāt need an Equus or a Whoās afraid of Virginia Wolf , dropped on my unprepared head. Feel better. Your karma is excellent things will shift. DwightW.
June 1, 2024 at 12:01 PM
Urspo
Thank you. I need only wait. these states always pass in time.
May 31, 2024 at 10:24 PM
Anonymous
Was the playwright David Mamet?
It took me a few productions to realize that he draws his characters in a way that I find repugnant and there are other playwrights whose work I prefer. From my experience Mr. Market’s work has been consistent, so I no longer buy tickets to see his work.
Will Jay
June 1, 2024 at 12:02 PM
Urspo
I don’t recall the playwright. It was a well made play and very well acted in their defense. Not ‘entertaining’
June 1, 2024 at 12:17 AM
Robert
ā¤ļø{{{MAJOR HUGS}}} ā¤ļø
June 1, 2024 at 12:03 PM
Urspo
I feel 10x better for this. š
June 1, 2024 at 12:45 AM
Moving with Mitchell
So sorry for what youāve been feeling. Youāre not alone.
June 1, 2024 at 12:03 PM
Urspo
I always keep that in mind.
There is a brilliant scene in a Harry Potter movie where Luna says something like this. Do you know it?
June 1, 2024 at 1:24 AM
Old Lurker
Oh dear. I’m sorry the trial did not go the way you wanted. Despite the conviction it looks like he can still run for president, so there is still hope.
Like Blobby running a marathon, I feel that after this tournament it might be wise to take a little Duolingo break. This will make the owners of the app sad since they want you spending every waking moment paying attention to them (and will probably wave a different trophy in front of your nose to entice you), but stepping away for a while will give you a chance to rest and regroup.
June 1, 2024 at 12:04 PM
Urspo
Yes after this I plan on dropping down to the low ranks where people are there to learn a language not be on top of others.
June 1, 2024 at 3:21 AM
Ron
Trump is convicted but he will never see a day in jail. Our Republican dominated Supreme Court will find a way to save him again from accountability. The saddest and scariest part is how easily Trump has taken over the Republican Party and revealed most Republican officeholders were lying when they took their oath of office to uphold the Constitution. They have revealed themselves to prioritize their hold onto power first. Almost half our country supports these traitors. No wonder youāre depressed. Most days Iām glad Iām old and wonāt be around the next twenty years . Little did I know that weāve been living a lie.
June 1, 2024 at 12:05 PM
Urspo
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June 1, 2024 at 3:22 AM
David Godfrey
Find a gentle grassy slope, lay down, and roll slowly down, repeat as needed. Turn off the electronics and sleep for hours.
June 1, 2024 at 12:06 PM
Urspo
I write this on Saturday morning; things are better with some sleep.
June 1, 2024 at 3:50 AM
Debbie W.
Thinking of you and hoping that this too shall quickly pass. It is most distressing to dwell on othersā bad behavior; you were smart to leave the play at intermission and give yourself a break. It the meantime, try to focus on the good in your own little corner of the world. Pet dear Harper and take her for a walk.
June 1, 2024 at 12:06 PM
Urspo
All sensible things and are done with some good. š
June 1, 2024 at 4:28 AM
loriahawkins
BIG hugs to you.
June 1, 2024 at 12:07 PM
Urspo
big hugs to you too!
June 1, 2024 at 4:45 AM
Laurel Hill
Ahh. I hope you can catch up on your sleep and feel better soon. The world is a tough place lately. And none of us needs depressing drama in addition. Good on you for walking out.
June 1, 2024 at 12:10 PM
Urspo
It is Saturday and I am feeling better already. š
June 1, 2024 at 5:41 AM
Sam
I don’t know why, but I actually really appreciated you doing a vent post- most of which I feel I could write with the exception that I didn’t attend a play. The lack of karma for the bad actors in life really bites. I took have fallen off the Duolingo because I’m feeling a why bother. Hopefully you and I both will turn a corner and we will see the good, and the bad will get scooped up with the trash.
June 1, 2024 at 12:11 PM
Urspo
Let us hope so anyway.
June 1, 2024 at 7:31 AM
Debra She Who Seeks
I hope next week is better for you!
June 1, 2024 at 12:11 PM
Urspo
I hope so too !
June 1, 2024 at 7:35 AM
Anonymous
I agree with Sam. I appreciate the rants Maybe for me it’s a misery loves company thing. some times realizing the cruelty and abuse of people and animals just makes me physically sick.
June 1, 2024 at 7:36 AM
Glenda
this anon is me Glenda
June 1, 2024 at 12:12 PM
Urspo
I am glad my ‘rants’ are seen as “OK” and not as sign of whining. Most of the time I put this sort of things in my journal not on line.
June 1, 2024 at 7:39 AM
Anonymous
Totally get how you are feeling. As children, my siblings and I, were badly bullied by a psychopathic parent and I have spent my life trying to make life “fair”. For the most part I can, and do, deal with this well in my private life. But dealing with the public at work was another matter. The bad hats just pushed abd pushed until they got their way. If I tried to explain our policies, they simply went over my head to my bosses, who always acquiesed.
That was the really maddening part.
By the way, I’m pretty sure you aren’t grieving Trump’s conviction, as a couple of commenters have suggested.
Anne
June 1, 2024 at 12:13 PM
Urspo
I am grieving that this too doesn’t change anything. It shows once again he is impervious all as none will stop supporting him. When elected he will be all but dictator in name and the GOP will let him do it.
June 1, 2024 at 8:24 AM
larrymuffin
Oh my, sorry to read all this and on top of that the hot weather of your climes. I make a point of staying away of political silliness both in Canada and USA. I have other things that touch my life and are more important. I have been going through my library now with the move coming up in 5 weeks. So I am re-reading The Republic by Plato, still a very relevant book despite its age.
June 1, 2024 at 12:14 PM
Urspo
Good for you for not getting sucked into the pathology that is politics.
June 1, 2024 at 9:09 AM
Robzilla
(((hugs)))
When I think about people in general, Rick Wilson’s question to Democrats comes to mind. “Do you want to be right, or do you want to win?”
The stone cold truth is that sums up what society has become.
June 1, 2024 at 12:15 PM
Urspo
The one comfort is thems who follow this advice end up in history as bad people. They are remembered but never in fondness. The world would have been better off without them.
June 1, 2024 at 9:32 AM
Anonymous
Everything will be ok, and next week will be better. Or at least we all hope so.
June 1, 2024 at 9:34 AM
Anonymous
Iām Karen D.
June 1, 2024 at 12:16 PM
Urspo
Maybe. Maybe not. Either way we persevere and do the right thing always.
June 1, 2024 at 9:48 AM
spwilcen
I too railed against the extended weekend this week. I am only now beginning to recover.
June 1, 2024 at 12:16 PM
Urspo
I hope by now you are .
June 1, 2024 at 6:57 PM
spwilcen
Probably not until Monday morning…
June 1, 2024 at 4:48 PM
Sassybear
Rant away! You provide so much encouragement and support for the rest of us, the least we can do is give a little back. *HUGS*
June 1, 2024 at 4:59 PM
Urspo
We have each other; this is what really counts.